Most of the people in Cleveland are so fucking rude! They think they own everything and everyone. The men are aggressive meat-moggers and think of women as objects. The women are angry and always want to fight about something - ANYTHING! The city itself is ok. There's a lot to do, but the inner city has a big urban decay problem, and most of the road and streets are in terrible shape. I met a pocket of great people, as I usually do in any place, but the majority in Cleveland is not worth going back to, for me. What really cut it for me with a bartender being rude to me when I asked for a cocktail menu. A place's self righteous-ness knows no bounds when a bartender is rude to someone about a menu.
I am considering going back to Ohio in the far future to visit Columbus or Cin but Cleveland is not my returning visitor list. By the way, FUCK the BROWNS! FUCK the CAVS! And, FUCK the INDIANS! BYE!
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It took me years, but I'm finally in the northeast! I've been wanting to head up this way for some years, now. I'm now in Cleveland, and looking to say for a while. If not, I'll travel the northeast until I find my place. At the same time, I want to continue to travel and see things. I'm so excited, and Cleveland is SO CLASSY! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I contacted the person co-running the Couch House in Cleveland OH and after days of communicating I was rejected from the Couch House because of the negative review from the person harassing me on couch surfing. I sent proof that I was the one being harassed and I was still rejected. I was told the other reason was for not knowing when I would be leaving, but that could have been discussed after the major issue of dressing the harassment issue. Reasonably, it would be less than a week.
I don't want to stay in a place run by people that support harassment and mistreatment towards the community. I showed them the messages where I was threatened repeatedly, but apparently, that sort of thing is ok with the Couch House. What is more stunning was that I was told it was a concern for safety measures, but what about my safety is a victim of someone's vindictive nature? The review clearly isn't even written by them, as o be told by how everything else on the page is written including the other reviews. At the same time, we l've in a country where more than 10 rape victims can come out against their rapist and still be called lairs. It's not men and women as much as it is abuser vs victim vs society. The say the Couch House of Cleveland, OH supports systemic oppression because of this event. Please don't use this service. Please don't support systemic oppression. That last post was a very bad take on the state, but I'll admit I had more bad times than goo ones, and I made it great at the end. Over all, I'd have to rate NM as a bad time for me. I learned from it, so I'm glad I went.
I met great people, though. The staff of the Barrett House shelter, the other people I met from CS.com,the great people at Off Center Community Art Studio, some people from the Albuquerque Peace and Justice Center, and many wonderful people at First Unitarian Church. I'm going to make an extended "ALLmAssEDUp!" post on this later, but for now I'm writing an entry on my pov while I'm still here, but I'm going to go get my ticket out today or tomorrow.
New Mexico has a few good people. They are a %10 to the %90 GARBAGE people, here. The majority of the people here ruin what a lovely place this is, to me. They are poor, uneducated, close minded, and greedy. There's more of a market to capitalize off of homeless people, so if you want to join the fray and open a non-profit to "help" the homeless, head on out this way! I didn't make any long lasting relationships that I will continue to take with me on my travels. For who I am that makes me very sad, but for what this place is I don't want to take anyone of these people with me. Either they are garbage, or they are nice, but have a lot to do, and I don't want to burden them. ...Or, personality differences... New Mexico is a beautiful place with mostly warm sunny weather. as it is desert land it can be unseasonably warm most of of the year, but it has it's day where it decides "You know... I feel like conforming to what I'm suppose to be with the season and my geographical location", and and slam with cold. But, I can't say I didn't learn anything. I learned a valuable lesson is self respect, and zero tolerance to intolerance. I've taken parenting classes, took an art class, and met a new set of people that come with there own lessons. I'm glad I came here to meet those people and learn those things about the world and myself. So, with $75 all I can do is go to Arizona, which I expect to be worst than here, if not the exact same. I've heard Austin, TX is great, but unlike AZ - TX does not have healthcare. So, no TX. I don;t have any reason to go to Phoenix other than "Get the fuck out of Albuquerque." I don't expect anything positive from them, and I'll just be passing through. I have no interest in AZ or staying there. There's no "up" for me to go in NM, and I really don't give a fuck about AZ. I don't feel anything calling me there, like I felt here. The people are likely just as bad, if not worse. A throwaway place, for me. I'm sure I'll make it up north sooner or later... I don't want to go to PA anymore. I'm going to Ohio, instead! This is my last weekend in Colorado, and I'm very excited to finally get out of here. I've said all the goodbyes I can achieve by now, and the one's I can't get are thrown in the "oh well" can. Some people don't like saying goodbye, anyway, so maybe that's good for them.
I've finally found 2 short term places to stay, which I'm very fortunate and thankful for! Hey all,
I've been sick with a head cold. While I've been resting I've had a thought: I might not see anyone one else before leaving CO, due to people's time restrictions, including my own. In reality, there's a lot to be done in a moving process that doesn't involve desperation. Don't not know that until now! In any case, I'm moving, not dying. Albuquerque isn't a terrible drive to/ form COS, so I'll be more than happy to have visitors after I get settled in. It also seems as though I've found a place to stay. I didn't want to say anything too soon to get all the hopes up, but the opportunity looks very promising. I'm still opening to sending and receiving offers, so all my eggs aren't going into one basket just yet. The person is long term partnered and I feel like the universe is making a point of that - I asked to meet people that have been partnered in long term relationships and it started happening instantly! Now the opportunity to LIVE with long term partnered people has been presented! I asked my sake - I only know horror stories about relationships, having coming from a very mentally and emotionally unstable background. I've seen domestic violence with my own eyes and it's terrifying. The worst part is it didn't totally turn me off to being in a relationship for the rest of my life. I want to be in a healthy, happy relationship but I know more of what not to do than what to do. I need a first hand lesson in "Healthy Intimate Relationships 101". I know mom and dad are a great example, but I'm not near them, you know? It's been brought into light that the issue of "snow birds" is a thing in southern state employment. People that fly south for the winter, get temp jobs, and fly back north. I know I said I have a lot of optimism about the situation in Albu... and I stand with that. Somehow, I'm not intimidated, at all. I just feel like I'm going to do well, and I have that feeling based on nothing logical - but pure excitement! And, I feel like I won't be disappointed if things don't go the way I want them to, because whereas there's excitement about this there aren't any expectations. With all that being said, it's time to relive the dates. My departure will take place on any of the last weekdays of this month - depending on which is the best day for the accepted offer to be prepared for my arrival. I'm moving on with my life, and I'm not running from something bad like my previous moves. I know I have to do this because I'm passionate about moving forward, not because there's something chasing me. I've been in Colorado Springs almost 2 years, and now that's coming to an end. At first, I was considering going back home, but the population there is just the way I left them. I miss my family, but it's not wroth it in the condition 'Patch is still in - for my own sake. I've decided to head down to New Mexico, but the bus doesn't go to Santa Fe, so I'll be headed to Albuquerque... without a choose in that matter.,
I'm looking for a ride, rather than take the bus. Just something to meet a new person, and have a more consistent person to talk to. I know the other hand of a bus being safer, and more convenient, but if I always took the convenient route I wouldn't like myself or the people around me. The bus isn't ruled out, in any case. I just need money for the ticket, as of right now ($$0+tax and luggage). I'll miss all the people I've met, and I'll remember all the things I've done. It's sad to leave them beyond, but I'm glad I'm finally moving on. I originally wanted to head to OR and PA, but during winter that's unreasonable. NM is directly down, so that should make less harder to get to. Even if I have to walk/ hike/ hitchhike down it's still not what it would take to get to OR or PA. I know I've talked about OR already, but PA might be new. I was reminded that NewGrounds HQ is in PA, and the good folks and fellow members of the site always love to have to have the more the merrier in HQ territory! Also, it's not as costly as OR, but it's just as good, for the most part that I know of. They are doing well with LGBTQ rights, they have heath-care, but they are have an issue with voter rights. Heading out there would give me something in a non-profit position in that area. I'm very much about equality and justice, and we don't have anything (civil) if we can't vote! As that is the base of all issues I feel duty bound to help. For my own interests, I believe it's the only state with healthcare that is having that issue. The other states having voter rights violation issues are max-GOP and reused the heathcare expansion. It's great to be able to fight for a cause and stay healthy while one does it! I'm going to stay in NM for the winter and head out come warm weather. If I get set back and have to stay longer I can deal with it alot better than if it were to happen in 'Patch. I've also decided that I want to be a Pharmacy Tech. Simply in the event my travels come to and end, or I have to take an extended stay somewhere (like what happened here). A pharmacy doesn't seem like an environment that harbors a mass amount of dram. There's also a catch when working with people, but different places have different priorities giving a different set of people with a different set of goals. I'm not the type hang out with co-workers, gossip, or anything like that. Work is work, and everything else is separate. And, if someone does mess around it will be easy to report them. Or, just kick their ass and keep moving the meds. I'll figure out how that's going to work later, though. Heading out in mid/ late Jan. I'll see you soon, Albuquerque! When one door closes another one surely opens! I've recently been (emotionally) kicked out of a "community", and shortly after I met someone from couchsurfing.org and I'm apart of a bigger and better community!
I met a Turkish person who is very well traveled, as they've been a traveler and a couch surfing for only a little time, but has been a lot of places. Naturally, I was on the "You know so much stuff! Tell me your stuff! I want to know all the things!" We went to a cafe, a large park, the Citizens Project office, and to their college's campus - for they have a meeting there, after our meetup. It was so much fun. I was very nervous about meeting someone new, but we're hanging out again soon, so I guess I'm ok. I'm very happy as I not feel like an office part of the CS.org community, and I'm very honored to be apart of such a large, diverise, well-trusted collodge of people! Unfortunately, it doesn't seem like I'll be ready to travel when my time comes. I still won't have a choice, as my only other option is to stay homeless in the same location. If i'm going to homeless I figured I may as well travel, but I can't find a proper backpack let alone decent camping gear. I found a bike I love, and would be prefect for the road - for $600, that is. I didn't even bother to price the trailers. My laptop is old and becoming more busted everyday, and it's becoming more of a hassle to move around town with, let alone take it on the road. It's so old it takes up too much power to plug into shared power ports. And, it HAS to be plugged in to operate because the battery is old, and doesn't go unplugged for more than 7 minutes. I can't complain about it too much because it's better than nothing right now, but it doesn't seem like it will do me any good while I'm traveling. No one's going to want to trade it for anything of real value because it's so old - I'm stuck with it. The new laptop I picked out is $600, and the tablet is $300. I want to send my valuables home to my parents, but that costs money I don't have and it doesn't look like I will have. I don't want to have to sell them. They're valuable to me, but not to someone else to get enough money to make it worth losing.
I just don't know what I'm going to do. I want to be in at least a decent state of being able to travel on my own, instead of having to do it the hard way - being carry everything I can fit into a small normal type backpack and literally walk my journey. It's also going to be sometime in January when all the shelters are likely to be full, if I'm very landed in a place with shelters. This is turning out to look like something more horrible but necessary than fun and an important piece of my life. There's a level of "horrible" given I have to do it, vs my options, but my options are worse - in my perspective. I don't want to turn into one of those crazy homeless people that have been on the streets in the same place for 20 years! I have a job here, but they don't care to have the schedule sheet available for me so I can sign up for hours. They don't call when hours are open, even though I'M ON CALL. And, the only person on call, at that! I'm looking for another job, with no luck until school is back in session which will only give me 3 or 4 months in my current situation to work EVERYTHING out. Aside form my traveling stuff I have other reasonableness to my current situation. Outside of my situation, I can't find a new place to live in town on my budget. It would be counterproductive to move outside of town, because i don't have a car to come back into town at will. And, the bus system here can't give a single care about stuff like that. I have only a few friends with cars, and they also have their own lives to live. I won't have any gas money for them, either. You know, because I live out of town where there are no jobs, and too far away to get to a job, so I'll have no job, no money, no ride. What should I do? What CAN I do? This whole thing looks hopeless, now. |
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