I've been sick with a head cold. While I've been resting I've had a thought: I might not see anyone one else before leaving CO, due to people's time restrictions, including my own. In reality, there's a lot to be done in a moving process that doesn't involve desperation. Don't not know that until now! In any case, I'm moving, not dying. Albuquerque isn't a terrible drive to/ form COS, so I'll be more than happy to have visitors after I get settled in.
It also seems as though I've found a place to stay. I didn't want to say anything too soon to get all the hopes up, but the opportunity looks very promising. I'm still opening to sending and receiving offers, so all my eggs aren't going into one basket just yet. The person is long term partnered and I feel like the universe is making a point of that - I asked to meet people that have been partnered in long term relationships and it started happening instantly! Now the opportunity to LIVE with long term partnered people has been presented! I asked my sake - I only know horror stories about relationships, having coming from a very mentally and emotionally unstable background. I've seen domestic violence with my own eyes and it's terrifying. The worst part is it didn't totally turn me off to being in a relationship for the rest of my life. I want to be in a healthy, happy relationship but I know more of what not to do than what to do. I need a first hand lesson in "Healthy Intimate Relationships 101". I know mom and dad are a great example, but I'm not near them, you know?
It's been brought into light that the issue of "snow birds" is a thing in southern state employment. People that fly south for the winter, get temp jobs, and fly back north. I know I said I have a lot of optimism about the situation in Albu... and I stand with that. Somehow, I'm not intimidated, at all. I just feel like I'm going to do well, and I have that feeling based on nothing logical - but pure excitement! And, I feel like I won't be disappointed if things don't go the way I want them to, because whereas there's excitement about this there aren't any expectations.
With all that being said, it's time to relive the dates. My departure will take place on any of the last weekdays of this month - depending on which is the best day for the accepted offer to be prepared for my arrival. I'm moving on with my life, and I'm not running from something bad like my previous moves. I know I have to do this because I'm passionate about moving forward, not because there's something chasing me.